Thoughts

It's You and me God, even when all else fails... It's You and me..

A glimpse

I caught a glimpse of something today. Was beyond my imagination and am wondering if it's going to be even possible to happen. I can only close my eyes... pray.... and wish it will come true.

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Yesus Jawapanku

Prayer

Forgive me, Lord. I can't seem to stop...

Tuhan Pasti Sanggup

Gethsemane

My meditations - Ecclesiastes 3

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:
a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.
What gain has the worker from his toil?
I have seen the business that God has given to the children of man to be busy with.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity into man's heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end.
I perceived that there is nothing better for them than to be joyful and to do good as long as they live;
also that everyone should eat and drink and take pleasure in all his toil--this is God's gift to man.
I perceived that whatever God does endures forever; nothing can be added to it, nor anything taken from it. God has done it, so that people fear before him.
That which is, already has been; that which is to be, already has been; and God seeks what has been driven away.
Moreover, I saw under the sun that in the place of justice, even there was wickedness, and in the place of righteousness, even there was wickedness.
I said in my heart, God will judge the righteous and the wicked, for there is a time for every matter and for every work.
I said in my heart with regard to the children of man that God is testing them that they may see that they themselves are but beasts.
For what happens to the children of man and what happens to the beasts is the same; as one dies, so dies the other. They all have the same breath, and man has no advantage over the beasts, for all is vanity.
All go to one place. All are from the dust, and to dust all return.
Who knows whether the spirit of man goes upward and the spirit of the beast goes down into the earth?
So I saw that there is nothing better than that a man should rejoice in his work, for that is his lot. Who can bring him to see what will be after him?

Thoughts

In the last two weeks I have been blessed - really and truly blessed.. First the Michael Buble concert, then the pampering from Lorna, the affirmation that I have from Pr Elisha last week and today and then the warmth and fellowship with the Lows in the last few days. It has given me a bit more 'oomph' to press on in my ministry.

It's been a season of much struggle, frustration, heartaches, discouragement. But it's also been a season of encouragement, regrouping and affirmation.

I have been reminded again by my mentor that it's a season of learning and that He's going to do something beyond what I'm familiar with, beyond what I know. So I will wait and I will watch and I will pray.

And maybe, just maybe... It's time to get working on my version of 95 theses? we will see...

To aunty Annie

My head can't seem to get around this fact - You've gone Home today. Everything seems to have moved so fast and now.. You've gone Home.

I rejoice that you are no longer in pain, no longer sick, no longer suffering and is now with our Father.

Yet, my heart is heavy too.

In the midst of my fuzzy childhood memories, my memories of you stand out. You've always been the cheerful aunty who gives me mandarin oranges to try to make me happy because I always felt miserable due to bad carsickness whenever we went out. You helped me to pick a birthday gift for grandma when I was little and really wanted to give something that she'd like.  

Your cheerfulness and patience and generosity will be missed. I have always been touched by your little gifts to encourage me. Even whilst in seminary, you always gave me homemade strawberry jam that you painstakingly made cos you knew I liked them...

Cameron Highlands will no longer be the same without you there. Whenever I pass by your little shop, I will always remember you. Thank you for being such a blessing to me. Your life has touched mine. I will miss you.

I will see you again when it's my turn to go Home too. Rest in peace.

Hope of the nations

Quote on Heroes

"Without heroes we are all plain people and don't know how far we can go." Bernard Malamud

Quote on vulnerability

"When we were children, we used to think that when we grew up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability, to be alive is to be vulnerable." - Madeleine L'Engle

ruminations

The night is covered with a blanket of clouds. The air is filled with a symphony played by crickets, frogs and whatever nocturnal animals that has a song to sing which is accompanied by the soft sound of the flowing river.. a gentle breeze blows intermittently.. a sense of peace and tranquility enfolds me as I sit here in the darkness - one that seems to have eluded me in the hustle and bustle of life..
It seems like it's been a while since I've sat with You in the stillness and silence.. to be reminded that You are God my Creator, the Holy One, my Redeemer.. the God who loves me with an everlasting love..

It's at times like these that I wonder at my forgetfulness of Your goodness and of Who You Are.. Why would You call me Yours? I feel so unworthy... I'm speechless as I get a glimpse of Your grace..

As my mind journeys through time, through the last few months, I see how You've watched over me, guided me, spoke to me, strengthened me.. You've brought me beyond where I've ever thought to go.. You've shown me things I never thought to see..

Who is there like You?

I praise You my Lord, my master and my king..

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Blessed are...

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.
Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you."

Matthew 5:3-12