A glimpse

I caught a glimpse of something today. Was beyond my imagination and am wondering if it's going to be even possible to happen. I can only close my eyes... pray.... and wish it will come true.

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ruminations

The night is covered with a blanket of clouds. The air is filled with a symphony played by crickets, frogs and whatever nocturnal animals that has a song to sing which is accompanied by the soft sound of the flowing river.. a gentle breeze blows intermittently.. a sense of peace and tranquility enfolds me as I sit here in the darkness - one that seems to have eluded me in the hustle and bustle of life..
It seems like it's been a while since I've sat with You in the stillness and silence.. to be reminded that You are God my Creator, the Holy One, my Redeemer.. the God who loves me with an everlasting love..

It's at times like these that I wonder at my forgetfulness of Your goodness and of Who You Are.. Why would You call me Yours? I feel so unworthy... I'm speechless as I get a glimpse of Your grace..

As my mind journeys through time, through the last few months, I see how You've watched over me, guided me, spoke to me, strengthened me.. You've brought me beyond where I've ever thought to go.. You've shown me things I never thought to see..

Who is there like You?

I praise You my Lord, my master and my king..

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thoughts

*sigh..another clash of philosophy...  i hate the feeling when I'm not able to explain something adequately(it gets worse when I'm nervous- which usually happens when I have to face him)...
i admit that i was wrong in the first place - not that it's an excuse, but perhaps deep down I knew he would not have understood anyways...

Forgive

Forgive...
Let go...
Move on....

Questions of the mind....

I've come to a realization - no matter how hard one works, no matter how one tries to cover all their bases, no matter how pure one's intention, despite the fact that one may think that

communication has been done, even when everything seems to be aligned to the will of God, when things seem to be moving in the right direction - one can get shot down(hard) most unexpectedly and the world can seem to come crumbling down in a moment.

So the question for me is this - how does one go on? Get up again as if nothing has happened? Live in fear for what might come again? Give up? What if it gets worse?

What do You want me to do? Will You give me the wisdom, courage and strength to do it?

A time for change

This is the third time I'm changing my design template since I started blogging...

I've always liked the rain - it brings back good childhood memories of fun with my bro and sis -and so I thought it apt for this blog...

It also seemed a good time to change my blog as I sense a few changes coming up in the air.. .

Perhaps it's a good time to restart blogging again... *cross fingers*

Random

Someone just said that I'm a matured Gen Y... Whatever that means.. kekekkee...

Waiting for more...

Everything's going well. I had a great time with family during Chinese New Year. We had an open house for the OA ppl from 10am-3pm and many came too. As usual there's so much food. Things are moving in the ministries that I'm involved at and there's a lot of things to do...
Why then do I feel like I'm waiting for more?

Thought

To have grace is to give grace.
To be forgiven is to forgive.

Thought

One's perspective isn't always right. Sometimes people are further than you think they are.

Thought

Sometimes your calling of obedience does not make sense. But I see again that Your Ways are so much higher. Thank You for sparing me the greater pain.

Thoughts

I feel like I have these bits of jigsaw pieces in my hand but not able to put it all together. In my weakest moment, I wonder if I'd ever have the time to do so. I had a much needed conversation with my cousin last nite and one thing is certain: somehow, somewhere, when this craziness is all over - I need the time to put it together before I move on to the next milestone.

In the meantime, I have to remind myself that faith is only exercised when I can't get any further with my own strength.

Also, I am reminded of how Rabbi ended the Isaiah class on Thurs - to trust in God rather than human political alliances that we deem as advantageous to us. His story about being disappointed when trusting in people really struck a chord. His sharing definitely contributed to another piece of the puzzle.

Thought

Challenge in Malaysia is not just to have as many Christians – but also what kind of Christians. - Dr Tan Kang San

Where I have to be

Some days, it feels like everyone around me is moving on with their life - new stories of life being created with their unexpected twists and turns - and I'm on the side of the road, derailed, left out of the loop and figuring how to get back on the track. Everyone is moving on, and I am where I am - not moving. When it gets to me, it's a rather frustrating, makes-you-wanna-cry experience.

For now, I'm learning to accept that where I am - is where I have to be.. No matter how I feel...