Prayer

Forgive me, Lord. I can't seem to stop...

ruminations

The night is covered with a blanket of clouds. The air is filled with a symphony played by crickets, frogs and whatever nocturnal animals that has a song to sing which is accompanied by the soft sound of the flowing river.. a gentle breeze blows intermittently.. a sense of peace and tranquility enfolds me as I sit here in the darkness - one that seems to have eluded me in the hustle and bustle of life..
It seems like it's been a while since I've sat with You in the stillness and silence.. to be reminded that You are God my Creator, the Holy One, my Redeemer.. the God who loves me with an everlasting love..

It's at times like these that I wonder at my forgetfulness of Your goodness and of Who You Are.. Why would You call me Yours? I feel so unworthy... I'm speechless as I get a glimpse of Your grace..

As my mind journeys through time, through the last few months, I see how You've watched over me, guided me, spoke to me, strengthened me.. You've brought me beyond where I've ever thought to go.. You've shown me things I never thought to see..

Who is there like You?

I praise You my Lord, my master and my king..

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Thank You

I guess some prayers take a little longer to answer... Thank you for answering this one... :)
I look forward with another year of service a little more now... :)

Psa 55:16-17

Psa 55:16-17
But I call to God, and the LORD saves me.
Evening, morning and noon I cry out in distress, and he hears my voice.

I need You to hear me.. I'm feeling rather overwhelmed these few days... There's so much to do and so little time to finish... The help that was supposed to come is sick...And as time keeps on ticking, more things seems to be piled on top of it... Please help me through this week... Not for my sake, but for the sake of those that You've asked me to care for...

A prayer for her...

I wonder.... isn't it already enough? When is it all going to stop?? How long more will she go on like this? How much more will she be able to take? What do You want me to do? All I can do is to love her from afar when You've called me to be here while she is still there...

Can you give her a glimpse of hope... even if it's just a small sliver? Please... I ask this of You... for her... because I know You love her... though she does not call herself Yours...

Questions of the mind....

I've come to a realization - no matter how hard one works, no matter how one tries to cover all their bases, no matter how pure one's intention, despite the fact that one may think that

communication has been done, even when everything seems to be aligned to the will of God, when things seem to be moving in the right direction - one can get shot down(hard) most unexpectedly and the world can seem to come crumbling down in a moment.

So the question for me is this - how does one go on? Get up again as if nothing has happened? Live in fear for what might come again? Give up? What if it gets worse?

What do You want me to do? Will You give me the wisdom, courage and strength to do it?

To keep on going

I've been finding myself feeling rather edgy in the last few weeks.
Perhaps it's been the lack of rest (the Sabbath break seems barely enough to sustain me on a week-to-week basis), perhaps it's due to the inability to further pursue my personal passions at this season of time, perhaps it's having to deal with the constant bombardment of the urgent rather than being able to work on the important, perhaps it's the uneasiness i feel with certain things that I see, perhaps it's the feeling of uncertainty and the fear of failure due to the heavy stakes involved or perhaps it's the built up frustration of dealing with structures rather than relational issues.

Whatever it is, it's been good to have a break today... It's been good to have a good laugh with friends... It's been good to have some time to read through some things for fun rather than for functional purpose... It's been good to have time to think and process my thoughts... It's been good to share a good meal with a couple of friends.. It's been good to talk over some fears with a friend and be reminded of the One my trust is supposed to rest... It's been good just to be able to pray with a friend... It's been good to refocus on the things that are going well - balancing my perspectives - rather than focusing on the concerns all the time...

While it's back to the grind tomorrow, it feels good enough to keep me going on for the coming days - which I'm truly thankful for.. :)

Dear Lord,
Help me to remember that You want me to put my trust in You when things seem to be overwhelming... That You are in the process of molding me.. That things do not have to go smoothly all the time but the bumps are there to teach me to look to You so that I do not go on my own speed... Thank You for all the things that are going well, and in the areas that are not so certain or seems hopeless, help me to believe that You will see me through it though it may not be my in accordance to my way... May Your will be done...

Prayer for today

Another year has come and gone....
A chapter has finished
And another one is about to begin
Thank You for all that is past, both the good and the bad
Thank You for this day where you have created this child so many years ago
Thank You for what's to come
I ask that You keep on holding on to me
Keep on guiding me for what's ahead
That this life may be truly be pleasing unto You..

Would You?

The 'big one' is coming
I already feel its beginning
Help me to continue to look up
In spite of the pouring rain

I still hear Your voice calling
Loud and clear
Reminding me of what's ahead
Plans that are awesome

But for now, I ask
Would You help me through this next mile?

Prayer

Answer me when I call to you,
O my righteous God.
Give me relief from my distress;
be merciful to me and hear my prayer.
- Psalm 4:1 -

Prayer

Hear my voice when I call, O LORD;
be merciful to me and answer me.
My heart says of you, "Seek his face!"
Your face, LORD, I will seek.
Do not hide your face from me,
do not turn your servant away in anger;
you have been my helper.
Do not reject me or forsake me,
O God my Savior.

* Psalm 27:7-9 *

Prayer

Carry me when I cannot take Your hand and hold on to You anymore...

Carry Me
You carry me
You are strength
I learn to trust in You
And once again I'm reaching out

In this place, dreams are made
In this place, where You are

Carry me, in Your arms of love
Hold me close to You
I want to be where You are...

Prayer

Dear God, My head feels like it weighs a tonne. Help me to lift it up or at least enable me to see Your feet so that I know that You are near.

Make Me A Servant

This song is one of my childhood favourites, a Psalty song. Now that I'm older, the prayer in the song still remains though the reality of it is tough at times.


Make me a servant, Humble and meek
Lord let me lift up those who are weak
And may the prayer of my heart always be
Make me a servant, make me a servant
Make me a servant today

A prayer in time a time of stress

It cannot be that I do not have the time to talk to You
Nor to think about You

So in the midst of preparing for exams

And in rushing to finish up assignments

To You this prayer I write:

Help me to remember that You are with me

And that You uphold me when I feel like the world is going to crash

That in You, I find my source of hope and strength

I praise and worship You my King and my Master

For You are truly awesome and Holy and full of wonder

So even though my eyes are looking down

At my assignments and study notes

And my heart is at times heavy at the troubles and injustices that I see

Help me to look up and remember who You are

That my praise to You should not stop

Just because of my feelings and my struggles

Only You and You alone have I wronged

When I have not done the things that I should

Or have done things that I should not

I ask that You search deep within and forgive my sins

I love You, My Lord and My God

May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart

Be acceptable to You My Rock and My Redeemer

To fall in love again...

I want to fall in love with You again
It seems like it's been a while since I've truly been with You
Perhaps it's the mundane rhythm of life
That has crowded out the space between you and me
The vibrant colours now all seem to be just gray
The joyous dance has now become a crawl
The meaningful has become meaningless - boring even

I want to fall in love with You again
Perhaps when I am once more found in You
I'll find myself again

I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning. -Psalm 130:5-6

To You...

Perhaps this post does not do justice to You. However, someone reminded me recently how little I actually speak about You sometimes. You know how You continually amaze me. Just when I think that things are going to go awry and I cry out to You, You answer so quickly - at just the right time. Thank You for Your mercies and not giving more than I can bear. Strengthen me that I may give strength to those who need it right now. Never for my sake - but so that You may be glorified.

Forgive me for being so stupid as to lean on my own understanding and abilities instead of seeking You. Your grace is indeed sufficient for me.

Prayer by Ambrose

O God, teach me to seek You, and reveal Yourself to me when I seek You.
For I cannot seek You unless You first teach me,
nor find You, unless You first reveal Yourself to me.
Let me seek You in longing, and long for You in seeking.
Let me find You in love, and love You in finding.

- Ambrose of Milan, 339 - 397.

The storm

The storm is raging around. It shows no sign of abating - at least, not for next couple of days. Sometimes it's been hard to look up in the midst of the struggle of holding on and making sure nothing goes overboard. Yet, there is a sense of peace that assures me that You're still there. Would you please help me to keep on holding on till the storm blows over? That's all I ask...

One Desire

If I could have one desire
Before my life is through
Even in my darkest night
My light would shine for You

If I could stop the hands of time
Or make a wish come true
I would tell my heart to burn with fire
For no one else but You
This is my one desire

You are my saving grace
The anchor of my soul
And in a world that's turned upside down
I want you to know..

You are my faithful friend
The one that I lean on
You always understand
With all that I am
I give You the deepest devotion I know
With all of my strength
I won't let You go
As I look to You above
I will give You all my love

By Lenny Leblanc