Time

Time is so so precious..
It is so sparse nowadays - especially when there are always lots to do(Could have something to do with all the ministries I am involved in).. The worst thing about it is that there are much more that I want to do.. Am just 'envious' of ppl with plenty of time... Wish I could have some of their spare time transferred to me so I can use it for the other things that I want to do.. hehhee

Well... What is it that I am doing nowadays??
*Have been fixing my tooth (which will apparently take until February to finish everything - good news is: doctor says that it is healing nicely and that there are no infection).

*Just finished organising our first PJEFC High Praise- which was pretty successful in my eyes(I had very low expectations- I should've had more faith)..

*Tying up loose ends in the office before the end of the year because..... *drum roll*
I am going to BIBLE SCHOOL in January!!!!! At least, it looks that way... Applications and preparations are currently underway... Have been having discussions with lots of people... Am just tying up loose ends and wait for the final decision from my church board.
Am rather excited... Besides having this wonderful opportunity to study again, there'll be pianos there that I apparently can tinker with(whoopeee!!).. Am hoping to have more time to sit down and write songs too. Heheh - we'll just have to see since I have this knack of getting myself involved in heaps of stuff... *grin*
I'm planning to study Bachelor of Divinity at STM Seremban for the next four years. But I'll be back home for weekends to serve in my church.
So am just looking forward to it all!

Dear God,
Thanks for the wonderful opportunity to study at STM next year.. I continue to pray for Your guidance and leading and Your hand to be upon me.
Thank You so much Father :)

Tooth Job

Finally did something to my tooth.. Had a roller blading accident a few years back and there was a very bad impact on my left canine tooth.
Had my treatment yesterday and it reminded me a lot about the day when I had the accident-the local anaesthetic, the stitches and the blood in my mouth :P .. The doctor had to pull out all the fragments of the root as well as the one that was embedded deep inside... Took him longer than expected.. he was trying to pull it out and crush it... when it didn't work, he had to use the drill -good thing i was on anaesthetic... but when it wore off, it was very painful!! plus it was still bleeding for the next three hours or so... Hate the taste of blood in mouth...
Brought back memories of how eating used to be an ordeal too.. but this time's not as bad as the last time..
Why did I blog this 'gruesome' account?? Because I thank God for bringing me to the doc and for FINALLY doing the treatment.. and that there was no infection affecting my other tooth despite the procrastination... I thank God for bringing the oral facial surgeon and that the clinic was nearby my house (he set up his clinic about under a year ago).. I thank God too for making it much more affordable compared than if I was to do it a couple of years back...

I am reminded in all this, though I had a bad accident, God's still taking care of me.

Thanks Abba, Father.

My Father

This song really ministered to me this morning.. Really recommend it to everyone... Even in this busy time, it was just great to sit at His feet for just a little while and just be in Father's presence. All is right in my world again.. :D


Your Favourite Name is Father - by Newsong
Almighty God, Lord of All Creation
Ancient of Days, The Holy One
So many names You've given us to call You
But the one remains
Your favourite name...

Your favourite name is Father
You love to hear Your children calling
You're there to catch us when we've falling
Your favourite name is Father

Abba Father, Holy is Your name
Abba Father, Holy is Your name

sigh, sigh, sigh..

Fewer,fewer, fewer... That's seems to be the rate that I'm blogging nowadays..
Just going through this 'lazy phase of blogging'.

Busy, busy, busy... That's just about the sum of my life nowadays.. Last week was considered a 'slow' week - was feeling quite weird because of it... This week is almost back to normal..

Conflicts, conflicts, conflicts... Things of this nature seems to crop up frequently - last week none of it happen - so again, it contributed to the feeling of 'weirdness' last week.. This week is back to normal.. And I'm feeling comfortable again (Yes, just call me weird)...

Frustrations, frustrations, frustrations... Am somehow getting this feeling of wanting to do more than I'm doing(Yeah - it's a pretty nutty thing to say since I'm doing a lot nowadays)... And don't know what to do and how to do it.. That prolly sounded weird.. But I just somehow think there's more to it than what I'm currently doing..

Maybe all this is part and parcel of 'post-fasting'..

Reflection on 40 day prayer and fast

Realise *again* that it's been a while since I last posted something up.. I do hope to blog more often... I continue to marvel how time flies..
God's been really good to me in the past month (Then again, He's always good).. As I've just finished the 40 days fast and pray over a week ago, I realise that there was a LOT that He did during that period through me and for me..
During this period:

• There was a breakthrough in an area in my life that I've been struggling off and on for 10 years now
• God spoke very directly into my situation TWICE
• Conflicts and confrontations arose but was overcome
• Felt that I was so much more sensitive the Holy Spirit
• God opened doors for me to minister to my friends whom i've not heard from in a long time..

It was the first time for me to fast for such a long period.. It wasn't all smooth sailing - there were tough days... But on reflection, it was a time of growth in my spiritual life in a different way.. Am glad I did it.

Can't wait..

Counting the hours before I go up to Frasers Hill for a short break with Sue Ann..
We've been planning this for the past two months.. A few friends have told me 'Eh.. I thought that you just went for a break in Camerons?'..
Realise that getting breaks every now and then is very vital to me... I WAS refreshed the when I went up to Camerons last month - but Cross Gen camp (or at least the after effects of it), ministry stuff and just staying late almost every nite in church has just been tiring me out... I don't get much break (my day off is for doing family stuff) - most of my breaks are snatched here and there- an hour here, an hour there - not that I'm complaining, these breaks are better than none at all.
Lots of spiritual battle (feel like i have been squeezed and pressed on every side at times) has been going on the past two weeks and I just want to spend some time with my Saviour and just talk and work things out with Him as well as seek directions for the future.. Am just looking forward to spending more solid time with Jesus.. :)

Dear God,
Thanks for making weekend possible. I pray for protection from your angels as we travel back and forth. Am sooo looking forward to just have some 'me and You' time.

Happenings

This is really terrible... Have been so busy that I've forgotten that I have a blog!!! (can you imagine that!!)..

Events of the past month off the top of my head
Am following the NECF 40 day prayer and fast and so much have been happening in the past month..
Cross Gen Camp.
PJEFC Jamming sessions commencement..
Christmas and Easter planning...
Clearing of workload after coming back from Camerons..
Worship leading for the past two Sundays..
Preparation for Worship Leading at NECF prayer convention..
Working out Cross Gen issues..
Have read several biographies over the past month- Corrie Ten Boom, Samuel Morris, Brother Andrew
Also read: Women as risk takers for God, How to make them laugh Book 1(by David Wong)
Also read: Joshua, Judges, Ruth, 1 &2 Samuel, 1&2 Samuel (Part of Low Chai Hock's ABS homework)
Awesome ABS (Adult Bible School) classes:
Text and texture of OT - Low Chai Hock
Teaching less and learning more - David Wong (Haggai Institute)
Helen's Baptism

Okies.. back to work... SO MUCH WORK TO DO!!!

Dear God,
Thank You for Your mercies everyday.. Thank You for seeing me through each day - especially the hectic ones... Thank You for revealing so much of yourself to me in the past weeks.. *GRIN*

Life goes on as usual...

Busy busy busy..
So many things to settle as usual - Worship ministry stuff, Cross Gen stuff, Missions Stuff..
Besides that, try to make a concious effort to get to know people and sow into their lives as well - I realise that sometimes I DO get so involve in the 'business' side of the ministry that I forget to include people.. Was just telling Jia En that i realised that i have a bad habit of running around on Sundays and Friday nites and just not being able to stop to talk to people. =P I reckon that that's one area that I definitely should be working on..
Anyways- the highlight of the week for me this week is CROSS GEN CAMP(Friday evening till Sunday morning)!
Am looking forward to hearing Ps Elisha again!!! Am looking forward to seeing what awesome things God's gonna do in the camp..

Dear God,
I commit the cross Gen Camp into your hands.. I pray that You'll preserve and protect Ps Elisha at this time and grant him the rest that He needs. Please continually move in the people of Cross Gen.
Thank You for what You're going to do!

Holiday at Camerons

Feel so lazy to blog.. Partly because I have lots to clear up due to my past week's break at Camerons as well as making preparations an important meeting this Saturday (which seems to take up a lot of my time) as well as - I must admit- some other distractions. :p
Anyways, just thought I should blog about my trip to Camerons.. Had a great time there last week (as seen on the pics).
The first few days was just spent relaxing, talking to Liza and Azmi (two orang asli staying with my dad) and giving them English lessons in the evening, following my dad around, praying for breaktrhough for some friends who requested prayer, doing some very limited reading, playing with puppies and playing sudoku(a really fun puzzle). The OM OCZ team came up on Friday and it was great fellowshipping with them and getting to know over a dinner.
Mum, Esther and the Sellar family(Uncle William, Aunty Poo Choo and Katy) from UK joined dad and I on Friday night. Had a great time of fellowship and sightseeing with them on Saturday and Sunday. (pics found here)
Overall, it was a great break. *BIG GRIN*

Dear God,
Thank You for breaks and holidays. :)

Uncle William

The Sellars and The Ngs

Esther and Katy

Me, Dad, Esther and the puppies!

Me, Aunty Poo Choo and Esther

Katy, me and mum and the bee farm 

Baby Chloe's sleeping so sweetly 

Baby Chloe 

Sleep

It's been a pretty restful week.. Especially last nite - slept at 7pm! Was so tired.. wanted to go take a bath and then go for prayer meet... The bed looked so tempting.. the next thing i knew -it was 1am!!!! Went back to sleep at about 2.30am - house had a short black out.. And it was really good to have the electricity back..
Feel slightly lost this week - probably because of the lack of the usual hectic activity - had to clear a lot of things as part of Hillsong preparation.. But now that I didn't go, it's just sooo - weird..

Baby Chloe

Went to see baby Chloe yesterday... She's so adorable!! There's just something special in holding 5 day year old baby... My family was just taking turns carrying her and just watching every little movement she made - her yawns, her smile, her scrounging of face and her sleeping so peacefully..
Will put up a pic of her once Esther sends it over.. :P

No visa... but it's ok, :) He still makes me smile

Ahhh... been having a restful Sunday afternoon.. My first in... I can't remember how long..
I've realised that I've rarely blogged on a Sunday too..
My cough is heaps better - probably due to the much needed rest.. :P
For today, I just went to church, went to ABS class on Old Testament by Low Chai Hock (as usual, it's been fantastic even though he gets a bit incoherent with his vertigo.. ), had lunch with my family and basically went home, read excerpts of Jim Elliot's diary and just Konked Out. Didn't realised I was that tired.. Am just so used to my very fast paced life where it's just one thing after another.. Woke up only at 7pm!! went out for dinner, went to Pasar Malam (night market) and came home, watched some tv and now blogging for a bit before watching CSI and just go back to get some sleep... It's been just good to rest... Hinei!! (apparently it's a Hebrew expression for 'very good'.. hehehe am learning well from my ABS classes -it's been just worth it to not go to Hillsong just to listen and learn from the ABS class.)
Think that I should add that I didn't get my visa... But am just so blessed at the same time... Have had so many ppl just concerned for me- either calling me, SMSing me or just coming up to me to ask me I'm ok.. Am just feeling very well loved.. And that's why He makes me smile -through them -everyone that has just been concerned for me (people in church who I have no clue of their names even have been coming up to me and to ask if I was ok)..
Thank You Jesus for just loving me!!!
I was just shocked initially and really disappointed cos as I've said, I really was looking forward to visiting friends and family there and also to have my much needed R&R as I have been feeling rather worn out. Realise that I've not actually have had much of a break since Easter preparations in February.. Uncle Sam (Ministry coordinator/pastor) has just been really concerned for me that I'm getting burnt out..
But am just having this 'peace that passes all understanding' about not going.. For some reason, I do just feel that it's just God's will for me NOT to go.. He's just allayed all my fears -especially about the air ticket refund(Just am praying that tomorrow, the Australian embassy will be able to date that the rejection of visa was on Friday and I'll be able to get the refund!).
Just realised to that it's ONE YEAR that I've been working in church!! (I started in July 2004)..

Dear Father in Heaven,
Thanks for just seeing me through this time.. Though Your ways are hard to understand at times, thank You heaps for watching over me and showing that You still care through so many ppl..
Thank You too for seeing me through the year.. am so excited to just serve You in the next year and see where You lead me.. Continue to hold my hand... I need You to lead and guide me for without You I will truly be lost.