This morning

Woke up this morning - took a look at the clock: 8.39am... ARRRGGGHHHHH... Aunty Chan Boey's coming NOW! Where's my specs? Where's my specs!!!????!!! Cannot find it... ARRRGGHH!! Quick! Need to change! Where's my specs!! *honk* *honk* ARRRGGHHH... She's here!! *ring* *ring* "hello aunty chan boey! Can't find my specs!! Go ahead and i'll *somehow* find my way to work." *click* Where's my specs!! ARRRGGGHHHHH....
Yup- there was just how my morning started... Finally found my specs-it was under the radio cupboard/table. *sigh* And managed to get a lift to church from EJ.

On a different note, I know I need to plan for the worship seminar but boy- am feeling so lazy... Not to say that I've not done anything this morninglaaa... Just overwhelms me at times on what I have to do.. Feel paralysed.... Just have to take time out and add God in the equation.. Even this morning, seriously had to pray "God you have to help this 'blind' child of yours where to look for her specs' *grimace*
Just realise as I'm writing this that He is just continually teaching me to depend on Him for everything: for strength that he will carry me through and for sight to see what He wants me to see..

Dear God,
It's another crazy day. Am overwhelmed with the things that I have to do. Am so afraid that I can't finish it all and that I won't do a good job. But Your word assures me that "I can do all things through Christ" so I'm counting on you ya??? =)
Thank you too for people that encourages me and that bears with me-my messiness, my scatterbrain-ness, my impatience and my irritated-ness.. You alone know how much I love and appreciate them all the more- though I may not show it.
I know too that you're refining me each day-and it's rather painful at times. But at least I have You beside me and I know You love me more that I can every imagine. Thank You..

Lovely Surprise Call

Just received a lovely surprise call from - Adeline (My beloved ex-housemate in Melbourne)!!
Have not heard from her in 4 months now. The last time I saw her was during Easter.
She has been busy travelling in Australia and with her new job(which requires her to travel a lot).
Am gonna meet up with her this Sunday at 2pm! Am SOO looking forward to it.
Didn't realise how much I missed catching up with her until she called today.

Dear God,
Thank You for each and every person that you've placed in my life. They are such blessings to me.

The past week

It has been a rather eventful week. Caught up with Sue Lee just last week on Thursday evening and it was rather good. Also had an argument with a close friend and things sorta went 'funny'(Hmm.. it was not so funny after all) the next day and was really sad at one point. But we made up on Friday and got back to our usual footing so that was really good. Made me realise how much I treasured our friendship.
Went to cross gen late on Friday. Had a memorial service at 5pm for aunty Dora's brother and I was supposed to play the piano so a lot of things beforehand back logged and I had to stay back to finish up. Cross Gen was good though I was rather sad when I found out that most of my cell group members have not had the role models/accountability partner/spiritual mentors that I've had.
The weekend was hectic as usual. Had a wedding on Saturday morning and played for the worship. Sat afternoon had the usual practice and basically hung out with my mum. Just her and I- for the first time in ages. =) We did the usual mother daughter stuff- talk about ministry and stuff. And then we watched tv together.
Sunday was more busy than usual. Had service in the morning, had lunch with EJ and his friends then had to rush back to church for the practice for this Sunday. Was so tired that when I got home I just fell asleep. Had a nap then mum came home to pick us up for dinner. Finally got to meet up with my aunt who's on a short holiday here from Brisbane. Then had a cross gen leader's meeting that evening.
Monday was just the usual - cook in the morning, teach piano, hang out with EJ in the afternoon. Went home for dinner, did my chores, watched telly, read a book by Mike Pilavachi(The title escapes me for the moment) and then went to sleep..
Today has just been a busy day with the worship seminar. Still need to get my musicians.. *sigh*
Looking forward when the seminar will be over. Thank God that Sarah came in to help with sorting out the old songsheets...
Arrgggh.. just remembered that I need to send aunty I the lyrics for Paul Baloche's "Above All" =P

Dear God,
Preserve me.. *cheeky grin*

People

People are such funny and amusing beings at times. Just had a rather interesting wedding rehearsal yesterday evening. In short, uncle Loh Soon Choy is a rather interesting character. =)
I think that God uses ppl to help you improve in your short comings.
Proverbs 27:17
"As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another."
I think it is so true. I figure that I might not like being scolded/rebuked but it helps me to be more like Jesus. =)
Need to stop this here. Have heaps of stuff to do. Two more things to say. I've finally got my computer at the office!!! My aunt from Brisbane's here!!! yay!!

Dear God,
Thank you for the ppl that you've put in my life. Especially the ones that care for me enough to rebuke me - not that I enjoy it when it happens or that I like it happening all the time.
Thank you too for my computer and that Ee-ee's down here.
I pray too that you help me to get through this week. You know how hectic it's going to be and how much I want to be used for your glory especially in the worship ministry.

Work Stuff

Am so GLAD that the distribution of brochures for "Rediscovering Worship Seminar" is FINALLY finished. Thanks to EJ's help of driving me around town to the other churches, we completed it yesterday. Was so tired after that that I went to bed at 8pm! Haven't done that in a while. *grimace*
Today, I'll have to prepare for my worship tonight,  pray for the Worship Ministry and work out the flow for the worship this Sunday. So it looks like I better get started for all of that or else I'll not be able to finish it all.

Dear God,
Thank you for being with us yesterday as we went around distributing the flyers.  I pray that you will be with me even as I go around finishing the stuff that I have to do today

Worship Leading

Worship yesterday evening went well.  Ended up chosing a bunch of hymns and some old songs which I really like(Then again, all the songs I chose are the ones I really like)..
Worship leading at prayer meet is something that I've not done in a while and the only reason that I did it in the first place was  because no one else wanted to do it. But I really felt the Lord's guidance in this one. The songs just flowed through my head- seriously- if it was me, I would not have chosen so many hymns. One's usually the maximum for me.
I need to pray for the worship leaders. 
Ang - who's feeling slightly under the weather and who's leading worship this Sunday
Uncle Lawrence - who has so many responsibilities and struggling with them at times.
Peng Peng- Have been so blessed by Hillsong
Ting -Parents are here
Uncle Thomas - now assistant HF leader
 
Dear God,
There always seems to be so many things to pray for. Remember the hymn- what a friend we have in Jesus  and am reminded that we can take ALL things to you in prayer. Thank You for that. =)
Thanks too for leading me in the worship yesterday.

 

Breakfast with Adrian

Just had breakfast with Adrian. He gave this super cool idea of having breakfast once a week with the Worship Leaders. =)
Dunno how well it will sit with the rest of them. =P
We discussed about discipleship and worship over breakfast.
Now I have more work to do. =P
Oh well, looks like i'll have heaps to do today.

1. Prepare for worship leading at prayer meet tonight and at cross gen on Friday
2. Check the flow for Adrian's songs.

Dear God,
Thank You for Your faithfulness. Need you to lead me today as I prepare for worship for tonight and Friday.

Nothing

My mind seems to be rather blank today.  Feeling rather sleepy too.
So much to do and yet.. feeling sluggish. =(
WANT TO SLEEP some more!
*sigh*
Need to prepare for Friday's worship and possibly tomorrow night's. =P
I hope not...

Random stuff

Colour code
Black = Neutral
Purple = Great
Red = Bad
 

1. Have not been able to blog as often as I would like to.
2. Going out with Olivia this afternoon for tea
3. Watched an awesome play yesterday about trusting God by Colin Kirton and his team - the footstool players.
4. Helped out at an awesome choir event last Tuesday.
5. Have been busy with Cross Gen
6. Sad cos have been reading less and less books
7. Been watching more animes at EJ's
8. Had an email from Liz - she says that she'll be calling soon
9. Had an awesome time with my cousins(Sern Yi, Sherene, Melissa and EJ) last Thursday evening
10. Missed them heaps after that
11. Have not been able to play with the dogs as often as I would like to
12. Yen Ling's staying over tomorrow
13. Heaps of ppl coming in and out the house
14. Aunty Poo Choo came and visit- encouraged me to go over and visit her in the UK. Have not seen her in 5 years.
15. Was not happy with how things went for worship yesterday.. ARGGGHHH!!
16. But God's been moving in the worship on Sundays for the past three Sundays now as I've been praying - and I'm sure heaps of others have been too
17. NECF has started a fast and prayer for Malaysia for 40 days till Merdeka Day.
18. My godbrother- Sean's back from YWAM DTS. Missed him heaps as he's really encouraging to me in the Worship ministry. Need more of that now that I'm working in church
19. Felt a bit disorientated at work last week. Maybe due to heaps of work and my routine had to change. NEED my computer!!!
20. Prayed for Diane who's sick with some disease in her kidney. I pray that I was a blessing to her.
21. Worship leading for Cross Gen this friday
22. Breakfast with Adrian Ang this Wednesday morning (this will be  a good thing cos of the free breakfast.. heheheh)
23. Checked out my mum's library of books last night. COOL!! HEAPS of new stuff to read!! Now I just need more time- how about it God?? =)
24. Going out with Sue Lee next monday.
25. Uncle Lawrence is coming back soon from Australia!
26. Christmas planning isn't going so great - too many conflicts coming up
27. Continually praying for Cross Gen to change- that God's will be done.
28. Been praying a whole lot more. Probably twice the amount than I usually pray
29. Been able to talk to Jorja. Passed her some bible study material to her so that she can study it with her sister
30. Still need to buy my camera
31. It's almost a month now that I'm working in church- been a really great experience so far
32. Had time to spend with my cousin Sherene.
33. Cooked with my sister today. Always good to spend a little time with her.
34.  EJ needs to check his ears. He still having some ringing or buzz.. =(
35. ICE CREAM NITE FOR AV TEAM TOMORROW!!! Yummy!
36. Am growing through a growth stage in my spiritual life! Thanks God!!
37. Need to pray about finding a place to do some studies for worship
38. Praying for spiritual mentor for EJ and Rimash
39. Had a lovely necklace with a 'R' from Peng Peng (her souvenir from her trip to Aussie Land). Was really sweet of her.

There's probably heaps more. But that's it for now. *Phew*.

Dear God,

Thank you for all the great stuff that's been happening- after all, there are heaps of purple stuff. And a few red ones. Please see me through this week as you have been the past week. Great is thy faithfulness!

Your Child,

Ruth

Love

Was at NECF prayer meeting last night and it was pretty awesome. Was challenged again to set aside time to fast and pray for this country. The 40 day prayer and fast will be starting on 22nd July.

1 Corinthians 13 was somehow imprinted in my mind. I believe that God has something to say to me- to love more. As the speaker said last night - what is ministry without love. Am now listening to the second part of Uncle George's message - what surprised me most was that he used the exact same passage. Uncle George said that when he was on board the ship, he used to love ppl in ministry the whole day. But at the end of the day, he would get irritated with his wife when he got home. Sort of know how that feels because it happens to me.

1 Corinthians 13
Love
1If I speak in the tongues[1] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[2] but have not love, I gain nothing.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Events
Work have been running more smoothly. Though yesterday was almost covered by an avalanche of work. Our church will be organising a Worship Seminar with Peter Rowan and Dr Daniel Chua from the UK. The event will be next month 14th, 20th and 21st August. This will be the first event that I'll be organising so I'm pretty nervous. Thank God for mum and ppl at the office who have been contributing ideas on what and how I should go about doing it. Looks like I'll be pretty busy (and draggind EJ with me =) ) in the next week in publicising the event to other churches.
*Sigh* looks like I'll have to postpone a couple of stuff-reorganising the worship structure, completing the songbook and compiling my worship library until the event is over.


Dear God,
Am glad that you've placed me in full time. Please give me the wisdom and the perseverence to complete the tasks that you have for me. Please give me a bigger heart to love others and my family.
Your Child - Ruth

Prayer and Work

Just came back from prayer meeting. It was really excellent. Everyone was really involved in prayer - it was slightly louder that usual - which I figure was a good thing.
Uncle John and Aunty Siew Wah shared about their struggles of moving to Australia. Aunty Jenny shared about the quarrel between her mum and her maid. She was really funny when she shared - I'll definitely remember her sharing for a long time.
We also prayed for the team that will be going for Kunming for two weeks. I MUST remember to pray for them.
Have been having a strong burden to pray for the Worship Team every week. Must set aside half an hour every Friday to pray for them.

Working in Church
Working in church have been rather unsettling at times. Find it difficult whenever I have to move from desk to desk. Probably because I'm quite a disorganised person and it helps me to have a permanent desk rather than moving around (and all my stuff moves with me. =P )
Been adding chords to lyrics and have been finding it difficult and rather tedious. EJ had this great idea before I left the office this evening to help with the lyrics and chords. Hope it works out. Will have to try it out tomorrow. If I go on the way I've been going, I'll go crazy really soon.
I must say that working in church has been really good so far. It's officially a week now - I enjoy it so much that I don't realise the time flying. Before I know it, it's usually 5.30 in the evening and I feel like staying on to get more stuff accomplished. The only thing that stops me is transport (Aunty Chan Boey really likes to go at 5.30 sharp) and my family(need to go home and chip in).
Other than not having a permanent desk, I find it a bit unsettling not to have set things to do. Find it weird that I have to set my own timetable everyday and to make a 'to do' list and ensure that I get through all the stuff on the list. But I guess that it's good for me - have to learn to be more organised and to manage my time more efficiently. =P
In spite of all that, I'm glad that I'm working at church. Am reminded from time to time that He is leading me and guiding me each day as I work there. It's just this great sense of being on the path that He's chosen for me.
The office environment is great. The 'three wise men' (Uncle Ean Chiew, Uncle Kah Kee and Uncle Chee Seng) are really funny and the rest of the staff have been rather supportive.
Everyday Aunty Chan Boey picks me up to church and sends me back. Her driving has been rather interesting and it's rather amusing being in her car. She makes all these funny comments about the drivers on the road. She also asks me questions in the car - how I feel about Cross Gen, What are my hobbies, tithing issues and non-existent boyfriends. =P Must say that the car rides are never EVER boring. heheh..
Okies.. That's it for now. Have been having rather late nights helping aunty Jessica with her art and craft stuff for the Kunming mission trip. We've done creating figurines out dough, baking them and painting them; making masks; making puppets and all the usual art and craft stuff. Brings back all the great memories where my mum used to do all that with us as kids. Mum's been having a great time too. =)

All that blogging probably made up for my lack of blogging lately.

Dear God,
Thank you for the lessons that you've been teaching me in the past week. Thank you too for the great times that I've been having. I praise you for all that you are. Teach me to worship you and to give you my best in all that I do. You know that I want to do heaps for You. Please make up for my lack - my messiness and my bad time management. Guard my heart and mind from evil. Teach me to live the way you want me to and to learn well the lessons you teach with a heart that you can mold to your will.

Good Story

Was really impressed with this story that Uncle John sent.

GROWING GOOD CORN

James Bender, in his book How to Talk Well (New York: McGraw-Hill Book Company, Inc., 1994) relates the story of a farmer who grew award-winning corn. Each year he entered his corn in the state fair where it won a blue ribbon. One year a newspaper reporter interviewed him and learned something interesting about how he grew it.

The reporter discovered that the farmer shared his seed corn with his neighbours. "How can you afford to share your best seed corn with your neighbours when they are entering corn in competition with yours each year?" the reporter asked.

"Why sir," said the farmer, "didn't you know? The wind picks up pollen from the ripening corn and swirls it from field to field. If my neighbours grow inferior corn, cross-pollination will steadily degrade the quality of my corn. If I am to grow good corn, I must help my neighbours grow good corn."

He is very much aware of the connectedness of life. His corn cannot improve unless his neighbour's corn also improves.

So it is in other dimensions. Those who choose to be at peace must help their neighbours to be at peace. Those who choose to live well must help others to live well, for the value of a life is measured by the lives it touches. And those who choose to be happy must help others to find happiness, for the welfare of each is bound up with the welfare of all.

The lesson for each of us is this: if we are to grow good corn, we must help our neighbours grow good corn.

Time

Wow! Time really flies by really quickly. Before I know it, it's been a while since I've updated my blog.
I've started work at church on 1st July and it's been crazy the last few days as I've been rushing around trying to get things sorted out and settled down and meet deadlines at the same time. =P
But I must say that it's just great and different working at church. Really enjoy what I'm doing and it just feels funny doing stuff that I've been doing intermittently since form 3 FULL TIME.
Working at church has been really good and interesting. The uncles and aunties at church are hilariously funny and very supportive. EJ's been a great help at times too. Though he tends to kacau ppl at STRESSFUL times- but it does make work more interesting. =)
The next few weeks will be really 'full on' as well. There's the NECF prayer event at our church next Wednesday(14/7). Sean's coming back on 22/7. There will be a two events at church on 18th and 20th July. And there's a leader's retreat on 16/7/04-18/7/04.

Went to watch "Around the World in 80 days" yesterday and really enjoyed the movie. Enjoyed my day yesterday. It was a really good day.

Heaps to do today. As usual, mum's driving me crazy by giving me heaps of stuff to do. ARGH! Gonna have to cook again in the afternoon for everyone due to SOMEONE'S miscalculations on the portion of food.
Am now looking forward to going back to work again tomorrow after all the craziness in my house (PLEASE GOD MAKE TIME GO FASTER!). =P

Pray for countries

Was just listening to a tape by Uncle George.
Am once again challenged to pray for the following nations. It's an excerpt from my notes that I made.

Top 10 most impossible God Shaking nations.
1. North Korea - very few churches and believers. Very fanatic.
2. Saudi Arabia - has almost no church. You can be imprisoned just to show a Jesus film. A national church does not exist.
3. Libya - about 10 believers from majority. Very few minority ppl.
4. Iraq - George have been praying for Iraq since he was 20 (now 45 years of praying). Iraqis are coming to Jesus because of the war. But they need more prayer and intercession
5. Iran - Young Christians are persecuted. The Iranians in other nations/around the globe are coming to know Jesus. God seems to be opening doors. Persecution is not extreme.
6. Chechnya - almost no Christian workers or missionaries.
7. Turkmenistan - The exception openess to gospel in central asia is Turkmenistan. Fanatics and great persercution
8. Tibet - No church in Tibet. You go there teaching English. You may go as a tourist or tentmaking.
9. Socotra - fanatic. Totally unevengalised.
10. Afghanistan - Now is the hour for Afghanistan.

Jesus told us to be concerned for all the countries.(the ends of the earth part in Acts 1:8). Pray that the Lord of the Harvest to send more workers.


Am reminded to read and pray with my Operation World.

Dear God,
Please send more workers to the above countries so that more may come to know you. Keep safe those who are doing your work there too.

Unfinished Tasks

Some work never seems to get done. There's always heaps to do either at home, work or at church and they never seem neverending. Not that I am complaining - I do really love the work. But there are times that I really need a break. =P
Have not seem to have had one for a while.

My idea of a break:
1. HAVE to be away from home(one can almost NEVER have a break at my house).
2. Not ministry or work related (I always end up doing something - it's just me- can't stand not doing anything at a conference or event- hmmmmm I think must recheck my life for the 'Martha syndrome' =P )
3. Listening to music for more that 2 hours in a row
4. Having a book in hand and not having any interruptions while reading it.
5. Time for meditations and just reflection on the things God has done.
6. Have to be more than one day per break.

Gonna start work at church tomorrow. There's already a pile of work to do. *sigh*
But one can always hope- can't they?? =)

Not blogging today

Not blogging much today. Am still recovering from the trip. And am feeling sick too.
Will blog more tomorrow.

My Missions Trip

Will be going to Cameron Highlands for a missions exposure trip tomorrow until Sunday.
Am leading a team of 7 people (Myself, My Mum, My Brother, Yeoh Poh Lyn, Pauline Tan, Edmund Lee and Foo Lai Tuan).
Am quite excited and apprehensive at the same time. As I mentioned in my previous entry, most of them are going for the first time for a missions trip. My dad will be there to lead us into the villages (as he's been working there full time with them for the past few years).

Itenary
Friday
8am: prayer and leave KL for Cameron Highlands
12pm: arrive at Ringlet and have lunch
1pm: Unpack, Orientation by Dad and Prayer
3.30pm: Leave for 24th Mile Village.
4pm: Arrival at 24th Mile. Make visitations and invite OA for meeting. Have praise and Worship and a time of Sharing. Have dinner with them.
8pm: leave and go to Tanah Rata to get some supplies (like rubber shoes)
10pm: Pray as a team and sleep

Saturday
7am: Rise and Shine, Breakfast, QT and prayer
8am: Load supplies and Leave for Remote Village by Jeep
11am: Arrival, unload supplies and do visitation
12pm: lunch and go as the spirit leads.
4pm: decide on whether we will be staying the night. If not, start journey home so it won't get to dark at the end of the journey and that we won't fall into a ravine. =P
10pm: Pray and get some much needed sleep

Sunday
10am: Church
12pm: lunch and Start leaving for home (unless we have more strength to visit another village).
4/5pm: Home Sweet Home.


Prayer points
1. Journey Mercies
2. Great Weather (So that the jeep doesn't get stuck and that we won't have to trek into the village.. Shuddering at that thought)
3. God's protection and covering - spiritual and physical
4. Great experience for the team members - that they will be challenged and see God's heart and love for the OA people.

Dear God,
Please watch over the team and that we will have a great time getting to know your heart for the lost and be challenged once again to move out of our comfort zones. I pray against the attacks of the evil one and that Your hand will guide us and lead us. I pray too that You will comfort any anxious parents. Please bring us all back safely and that we will be challenged once again for You. May our love for You be so evident that it will overcome any language and cultural barriers.

Changing minds

I hope that I'm not one who is prone to a constant state of fickle mindedness. Get so mad when people do it to me!!! =(

Yesterday and Today

Last night was really good. Went for prayer meeting and was encouraged to see the church standing behind us in prayer. Was especially encouraged by Uncle Victor's sharing - he shared on how when we try to do spiritual works, spiritual attacks will come and reminded me to stand firm cos the reward is great (sounds familiar? =) ).
Though he freaked me out a bit by sharing the incident that happened while he was there last year-my dad's jeep overturned and he SERIOUSLY almost died with the 'bomoh' and headman that was with him(it turned out well and the two that was with him became more open to the gospel- Praise God!).. I just hoped that the parents were not freaked out by the sharing. =P
Reminded me once again that this is not a 'play play trip'. And I never know if my life will be lost- but I guess it will be worth it if it was for the sake of the gospel.
Enough of serious thoughts for now- it's not even 10am!
Looks like it's gonna be a looooooonnnnnggg and crazy day today. =P
1. Have to cook and clean for lunch and dinner
2. Packing for the trip tomorrow (which is currently non-existent-the packing not the trip)
3. Still yet to do my quiet time (should do it right after this)
4. Hold the fort(my home-but the kids turn it into a battlefield at times =P)
5. Play with Kenny's Camera (ahhh... the fun part)
6. Continually pray
7. Listen to BM songs (for the trip)
8. Type, add the chords and print out the lyrics for the BM songs we'll be singing.
9. Watch the kids (This is the fun and the AAARRRGGGHH part)
10. Last minute shopping for the OA ppl like sweets and biscuits.
10. And as usual, the list goes on and on and on and on.. =P

Hope that I'll have at least one last time to blog in the afternoon.

Dear God
Give me strength! Sometimes have this feeling that You like watching me go crazy. But I know You love me anyways.

Dear God

I cannot imagine sometimes how You can love me. When I come into Your Holy presence - I despise myself as I see what a wretched and sinful being I am.
But I praise You and thank You for all that You are. You are my Creator, Maker, Comforter, Healer, my Redeemer, Lord and King, Beginning and the End, The Great I AM, Shepherd, Lover of My Soul and My Best Friend.
Let me not forget to tremble and get on my knees(and let my heart be higher than my head). Forgive me of the times when I allow myself to become bigger than You. Forgive me too when I see the speck of dust in the eyes of others and neglect the plank in mine. May you humble me in those times.
Give me the courage to show others how much I love You.
Let me decrease that You might increase - no matter how much it hurts or how painful the refining fire is.
Never let my love for You ever EVER grow cold.
This is my prayer. Thank You for being small enough to hear me, for being close enough to feel me and for holding me whenever I start to cry. =)